Church

Today's church service was a really really bad experience for me. Basically, it's because of my school's drama club teachers. The thing is, there's this time where Mr Sng couldn't make it and asked us to join in drama activities (since we're sort of "inside" drama) so i went. Then we needed to do this activity where we must shout "HA!" really loudly, apparently it's some voice thingy for them to like um i don't know just some activity. Then because sec 1 & 2 we did drama as part of english, so i did some of those activities as well. The thing is, i'm quite an introvert. So during the drama in lower sec, i didn't like really follow what they did, just imitate or pretend to follow and all is fine. But during this activity, i just pretended to follow as well, and the SAME drama teacher singled me out and asked me to shout "HA!" all by myself. Hmm, in a group of people HA-ing, i didn't dare to shout, now you ask me to shout it all by myself. Obviously i won't do it right? Then she asked me to stand at one corner. Then she started nagging saying what my cca also have to speak over the intercom(?) so must speak loudloud. I mean like, okay, that one need to speak, but just speak normally will do right? Not as if they won't hear me if i don't shout at the microphone? No logic seriously. You know i was so humiliated and i was on the verge of tears. But i couldn't cry, everybody will just stare at me more and i will feel more embarassed. Luckily i had tuition so i left earlier, otherwise i can't imagine what would happen. And this thing impacted me. Really. Like a huge impact. Then today's church service, they were like asking us to like pray loudly to have confidence. The way they speak, the way they encourage us, reminds me of that drama teacher. I was really scared. I teared as well but luckily no one saw it. So this is what drama did to me. Thanks a lot, before that i was still okay but because of you i've became like this. I will never forget your face and what you did to me.

On another note, let's continue the 20 day challenge.
2. 19 quotes you love.

1. やってやれない事はない、やらずにできる訳がない ~ Fukuda Mayuko, 福田麻由子 ( If you do something, there is nothing you cannot accomplish; there is also nothing you can accomplish by not doing anything.)
2. "Happiness in a Bubble" ~ Jeanette Aw, 欧萱
3. "Simplicity in being" ~ Jeanette Aw, 欧萱
4. "My coloured rainbow" ~ Jeanette Aw, 欧萱
5. Piglet sidled up to Pooh from behind. "Pooh?" he whispered. "Yes, Piglet?" "Nothing," said Piglet, taking Pooh's hand. "I just wanted to be sure of you.” 
6. How do you spell 'love'?" - Piglet "You don't spell it...you feel it." - Pooh” 
7. Rabbit's clever," said Pooh thoughtfully. "Yes," said Piglet, "Rabbit's clever." "And he has Brain." "Yes," said Piglet, "Rabbit has Brain." There was a long silence. "I suppose," said Pooh, "that that's why he never understands anything.” 
8. I wonder what Piglet is doing," thought Pooh.  "I wish I were there to be doing it, too.” 
9. But Piglet is so small that he slips into a pocket, where it is very comfortable to feel him when you are not quite sure whether twice seven is twelve or twenty-two.”
10. Oh, Eeyore, you are wet!” said Piglet, feeling him.  Eeyore shook himself, and asked somebody to explain to Piglet what happened when you had been inside a river for quite a long time.”
11. Supposing a tree fell down, Pooh, when we were underneath it? ''Supposing it didn't,' said Pooh after careful thought. Piglet was comforted by this.” 
12. Aya gets sick a lot. She uses up twice more money than her siblings. When I become an adult, when I become stronger, I'll let you guys live an easier life. I'll take good care of you guys like you took good care of me. ---from Aya diary (1 Litre of Tears)
13. Why did the illness choose me? The word fate isn't a good enough explanation! ---from Aya diary (1 Litre of Tears)
14. I thought to myself, hmm I see. My mom is probably in more pain than I am in. My mom works thinking about people who need help and are in pain. When I think about that, I can put up with my troubles. For my parents, myself, and for the society, I decided to continue doing my best with the hope of being able to live. ---from Aya diary (1 Litre of Tears)
15. There is only one road for me. I don't have the right to pick my options. I can never go onto the same path as my friends. If I make myself feel better by thinking that I'm going to walk the same paths as my friends, my own path will disappear... I wanna go somewhere... I wanna hit something really hard, yell and scream like crazy, fall down laughing.... ---from Aya diary (1 Litre of Tears)
16. Friends are so cool. I wanna be with them forever. ---from Aya diary (1 Litre of Tears)
17. In my dream, I can walk, run, and move freely... In reality, I can't do any of that. ---from Aya diary (1 Litre of Tears)
18. Do I not have the freedom to love or be loved by someone? ---from Aya diary (1 Litre of Tears)
19. As I think about the past, the tears will come out. Reality is too cruel, too brutal. I don’t even have the right to dream. As I think about the future, the tears will come out again.” I'm glad I came (to Higashi High School again), because it reminded me, the 15-year old me, was indeed, alive here.”The flower petals are opening up, each one more than the other. The flowers will once again blossom in full glory. Knowing yesterday what will happen to them today, made me happy.”Just that one sentence, ‘I won’t leave you’, encouraged me a lot. Doctor, thank you for not leaving me.”---from Aya diary (1 Litre of Tears)

So well.. yeah. 1 litre of tears is really an inspiring movie/drama. Go watch it. :)