finally

so, after so many struggling days that were full of ups and downs, i finally left noel.

i couldn't even remember how many times i swear i wanted to quit. but what made me stay was this unknown source of motivation.. somehow.

but time and again, i felt discriminated there. i felt super left out.

firstly, i came in on 26 nov with a couple of other guys. 2-3 days later, we were all taught how to use an application, SAP. all these guys had a hands-on practice. only i didn't, because the in-charge was busy and said i'd try later. but that 'later' never came. so, while everybody was using SAP, i was still using the slower web version, NPOS. i felt so left out.

not to mention, new people who joined get to learn SAP. and i still didn't get the chance to. this was the first time i felt like quitting. it may seem childish or what, but seeing everybody able to do more complex things and there you are, stuck with the super simplified system. it really isn't a good feeling.

after that, i decided to stay. it might be because i didn't wanna leave my first friend made there, since we only got to know each other for around 5 days. and she happened to be my only friend there.

after that, claudia joined and soon i also made another friend who is also mx's friend. work became more enjoyable, since we could talk when we were extremely bored.

but the happy times were shortlived. we soon got separated and i was put at a corner, with no one beside me. and some false accusations were made at me. and this was maybe the 3rd or 4th time i felt like quitting. but again, i delayed my departure. i had no idea why though.

but the longer i stayed, the more hateful treatment and discrimination there were. up till 2 days ago, i could tolerate it. but i finally made up my mind. i will quit. end it once and for all.

so here i am. now, i've officially resigned. there were many, many times, much more than i listed, where it was seriously unbearable.

but of course, there were a couple of really enjoyable times there, especially during the short-lived period where lycia, claudia, jasmine, junie and me would hang out at work. i'm grateful for those times.

i kinda have mixed feelings about this, mainly because data entry was my dream part-time job since sec 2, and i finally realised it. but now i'm quitting. there would definitely be some inevitable disappointment. but quitting is for the better. staying there would only bring more pain so yup.