jeanette aw.

okay so i'm just gonna say my thoughts about jeanette. like not really everything about her but just.. my thoughts yeah.

so i started liking her after knowing her through the little nyonya, the first jeanette drama i ever watched. i didn't watch ch8 regularly until TLN so yup. the first drama i ever watched was this medical drama with fann inside, and i liked fann fr about 2 years. then TLN, probably my 2nd drama, came and jeanette caught my attention in ep4. the ep where she said if she stole the thing, her hand will be burnt beyond recognition. that scene will be etched in my mind forever. the emotions are so real and so wonderful. i don't know how to describe it but it caught my attention. and actually this was after i bought the dvd. during the show i still didn't know who she was. only after i bought the dvd and rewatched, then that scene caught my attention. i still don't really know why the first time i watched it, it didn't catch my attention. maybe it's because that time i wasn't really "hooked" on drama serials so yeah. so i've to thank the dvd actually. HAHA. yup.

then star awards 2009 came, i already had a liking towards jeanette and was secretly hoping she'd win top 10. idk why secretly but hmm. can't really remember much bc i was still super blur that time. so my memory is all blurry and all. well she won top10 and i think i recorded SA2009 so i rewatched it and found her speech really cute and funny and once again, my liking increased.

then end of 2009, jeanius web was open. i got to see frequent updates about jeanette, her dramas, interviews and all and once again, my liking increased. then there was Together. so yup through that 2nd jeanette drama, you can say i fallen in love with her (okay sounds weird since we're both females HAHAHA). from then on i became crazy over her. literally crazy. like those xmm fangirls HAAHHA. was pretty annoying i guess.

in p6/sec1, as i said i was one of those annoying xmms that try to defend their idol. everytime i come across a forum discussing about the bad things about her i'd quickly create an account and scold them like crazy lol. THAT WAS REALLY SO.. ZZZ. i'd defend jeanette as much as possible, scold those people who disliked her and all. srsly that was so annoying and despicable. there was this youtube channel which edits jeanette videos with subtitles created by him/herself to insult jeanette and i was so pissed. idk what happened. only recently i went to check out the videos again and i went to see the comments. according to the comments, i was spamming the channel owner and scolding him vulgarities. and that owner even threatened to call my school (i didn't see that reply till now bc after i scolded them i never went back again). HAHAHAHA. omg srsly was i really that childish.

RANT; so rn whenever i see people defending their idol, i automatically classify them as childish, xmms. like why can't they grow up and accept the fact there are haters as well as fans?! so i really despise those type of people that defend their idol after seeing a article about their idol being commented on. like srsly. the article is already published on newspaper. no amount of spamming, defending can change that. also, you try to explain on twitter. do you think the person who commented will see your tweets and go "oh so it's like this! i'm so sorry for misunderstanding your idol." NO. THEY WONT. so why waste time explaining, defending on twitter? makes no sense really. why not just ignore it? people won't call you a lousy fan if you dont try to explain/defend y'know. maybe they'll find respect fr you and thus have a better perception of your idol? if you act all childish, people will not have a good impression of your idol y'know.

then when jeanette created fb, i tried all ways and methods to get her to reply me. like commenting on every post, posting on her wall etc. one day i woke up to see she replied me on fb and i went crazy at home lol. i can still remember what i asked and the reply she gave. :) then i continued to interact with her with the hope of her replying me and stuff. well my patience paid off, throughout the whole time she retweeted/replied me quite a number of times. i was soooo thrilled. i joined jeanius secretly in 2010. oops. HAHAAH.

i think after i went to sec2, i toned down a lil but still a crazy fan. yup. 11/11/11 11:11, my mum agreed to let me join jeanius. that was my 11/11/11 11:11 wish actually so i can say my 11/11/11 11:11 wish came true hahaha.

sec3 onwards, i really undergone a total change from the p6/sec1 me. i didn't really try to get her to reply me (probably bc of homework and the hectic schedule). BUT. BUT i still supported her with my all. i tried to go to as many jeanius' events as possible (which isn't a lot, bc i had tuition on saturdays and her events were on saturdays).

sec4.. although it's an important year but i still attended as many events i could (slightly more than last year). but i'm gonna work hard now considering the fact 1 july is tmrw. thankfully the chance of jeanette having events is low bc she's filming overseas and her blockbuster drama is in nov so if there's any roadshow, it'll be after o's. so yup i can concentrate on my studies. really grateful fr that.

well so that's my journey with jeanette up till now. it'll definitely continue. but for now, it'll be studies studies studies. throughout these 4 years, i got really inspired by her. you can say she's my motivation, my inspiration. i grew a lot thanks to her. she taught me a lot of things through the various interviews she had, through her blog, through her book, through her column in iweekly. i'm really grateful to have known jeanette and fr the chance to be able to meet her, talk to her, have photos with her. this journey will definitely not end anytime soon.

if you ask me, do i think she's perfect? my answer will be no. no human in this world is perfect. i will not be those delusional fangirls who think the world of their idols and think they're the most perfect being on earth. no. nobody is perfect. everybody have their own flaws. afterall, jeanette is a human too. as long as she tries her best, it's enough. i don't ask fr a "perfect" idol - no human can fit the bill. i'm just glad jeanette is a wonderful person, has a kind heart fr charity, is natural (ie doesn't put excessive makeup), wears simple clothes. she doesn't try to create news to boost her popularity, she keeps it low-key. even the accident when she was filming DIHH where she was scratched on the face. she didn't make it sound so exaggerating. tbh i totally forgotten this incident happened, I only remembered when I thought long and hard 'bout what to write. that's how low-key she is. that's really what i like about her.

to end this, i just wanna say:
thank you jeanette. you're my inspiration forever and always.

i know i drifted abit and went off-topic by ranting but yup i need to release it.