I'm really sad whenever I see a Mayufan start to leave Mayu slowly for another idol. I don't mean those who still support Mayu regularly, even if it might not be hardcore, while their main focus has been switched to another idol. I'm talking about those fans who really, after switching their idol focus, leave for real. Like completely or very little interest in Mayu news anymore, those kind of fans.
More than just merely being sad, it's really affecting me a lot that I could say it's rather depressing. And over these past few months, this depressing feeling becomes worse with every fan that I see leaving. And I couldn't bear it any longer. I broke down today. (hah i'm so weak.)
Most, if not all, are leaving Mayu for a less popular idol. Yes I get it, Mayu, being more popular, may not need as much support as less popular idols, but ultimately, she still needs fans. If every fan starts leaving with that mindset, thinking it would be okay because they are just ONE fan among her many fans, wouldn't that just decrease her pool of fans and eventually bring her down? Mayu can only be here today because of her fans. Without them, she's nothing even if she has the looks and talent.
Yes, you'll feel the urge to support less popular idols more because watching them strive to achieve their dreams can be really heartwarming. And you'll want to be there together with them, achieving milestones together and all. But we tend to overlook the fact that even a popular idol like Mayu is also striving to achieve her dreams. Mayu's dreams have yet to be fulfilled. Just because she's more popular and in a "branded" group does not make her any less different from other less popular idols; ultimately, all of them are just normal people trying to fulfill their dreams.
Yes, Mayu may not be the best at handshakes, yes, she may suck at social media, yes, us fans may have to wait AGES for a Mayu selfie to pop out, or even just a tweet or a post somewhere [the most recent wait was around 4 days where Mayu didn't tweet a single thing lol] which can be reasons why fans turn to other idols that post regularly and all. But she appreciates us fans. She herself knows that without us, she wouldn't be here today. Other idols can fish you every single day and make you feel special but I rather sacrifice that for Mayu's true appreciation. And I can tell she really means it based on my mere few experiences with her. I'll never forget her sincerity in thanking me for supporting her all this while. That, to me, is way more precious than getting fished by idols.
I'll never leave Mayu for another idol. She's my kamioshi for a reason. This position can't be replaced that easily. Heck, Jeanette has claimed my #1 spot for 4 years before I switched to Mayu, but even then, I've never left Jeanette. I still catch her dramas religiously and still get oh-my-god-i'm-so-nervous-help feelings whenever I meet her in person, even after 6 years of meeting her regularly.
Ahhh.. feels good to let it all out lol. Have been struggling with such depressing thoughts for months already.
Honestly, this is the reason why I can't suppress my love for Mayu despite meeting Iketeru Hearts. I truly support Hearts and I want them to fulfill their dreams, and I want to be there with them from now on, but I also need to be with Mayu while she fulfills her own dreams as well. I would be very ashamed of myself if I forsake Mayu whom I've been with for the past 2 years for a group I met less than a month ago just because they treated me so well when we met. I just want to support both who are chasing their dreams. It's that simple.
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