it was one crazy ride.
not to mention sem 2 was a rough and half-assed sem indeed.
one year ago (well, almost) i started school dumbly. did lots of dumb things which i will never reveal ever in my life. dumb things that i'd regret till today. cuz so damn embarrassing zzzz
then i experienced my first 'wave' of projects & exams. it was really hectic. but i overcame it. and things repeated themselves for the 2nd term of sem 1. compared to sem 2 though, sem 1 was definitely a much better sem.
then i finished sem 1. 2.5 sems left to go in SP.
and when i started sem 2, IT WAS THE START OF MY HELLISH JOURNEY. ugh. i had the worst timetable ever, which made me skip lots of lessons/lose attention. my motivation level to do anything academic-related just went downhill. i ended up self-studying 90% of the module myself, days before exams. but well, i overcame MSTs.
at the start of 2015, i made a resolution to attend classes on time, pay attention, and things like that. HAHAHAHA it never happened lol. started off the sem on a bad note, well, it'll definitely continue till the end of the sem, won't it? same thing, i ended up having to study 90% of the module myself too. and worse still, i couldn't concentrate while studying?!?! these past few days were really hectic. more of an emotional/mental struggle than mere stress though. i seriously lacked the motivation to study, which resulted in me not studying a lot, and then i'd hate myself for that.. and this cycle repeated itself each and every day. it was like an internal struggle with myself. and the lack of motivation to study wasn't even because i wanted to fangirl though.. i didn't even have the feel to watch PVs from green flash. i didn't keep myself updated on AKB news and i barely know the details to mayu's news.
sadly, i'll admit i didn't put in much effort in this sem. i won't blame anyone when i receive my exam results. it's all my fault, and i hate myself for that. but what's done have been done, so no use regretting. right now i can only look forward. it's all over, and whatever results i get, i'll just live with it. oh well i've already given up on going to a public uni so yeah~ (i just hope i won't need to repeat any modules..)
i'll put in more effort in year 2.
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sad things aside, TIME FOR FREEEEEEEEDOM!!!
firstly.. SLEEP
i haven't had more than 6 hours of sleep for ages?!?! during school periods, i'd be up early on weekends to study (more like trying to study but eventually failing). when school finished and it was exam week, i practically had average 5-6 hrs of sleep everyday, up till today. from 16 feb i guess? almost one month....
i'm really tired lol
and once i replenish my sleep, i'll start off with catching up on akb news!!!!!! and watching green flash PVs!!!!!!!!
(OH I RECEIVED MY COPY OF GREEN FLASH TODAY AND I GOT SAKURA. AND SHOP BONUS WAS YUKIRIN/PARU. for the first time, i don't need to sell these photos cuz i like sakura & yukirin!!!)
and afterwards catch up on jeanette's drama. then spam watch 48/46-related stuffs. then prolly watch some concerts which i've bought ages ago but didn't have the patience/time to watch.
and i'll start reading again! FINALLY I HAVE TIME TO READ HEHEHE
what else... oh and sort out 48/46-related stuffs. various stuffs which i won't reveal publicly, hehe.
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ok im pretty sure i have more things to blog abt but im srsly too tired at this point of time so good night
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